Life as I know it has changed. I don't know where to start and it is a long story. In short, Keith Mother is in the hospital. Keith nephews are with us, K is 12 & W is 9. We are trying to find out who has legal custody. Maybe 8/18/05 Keith' s mother will be released. Not sure. Two weeks ago she was evicted from her Apt. And is basically homeless. Thus the boys have no where to live. Have been running around to get thing for them since all they came to us with was the clothes on their back.
Pray.............W is ADHD he's like a 3 year old in a 9 year old's body. We are trying to get then clothes & toys. Donations accepted. Right now they share a mattress on T & E's floor. T & E are sleeping with us. 4 people in a small 2 bed room is cozy. Hoping the social worked will call me back so I know what to do as far as who they "belong to." BTW where is their mom??? Well, in a motel druging it up. I don't think she knows that we have then boys until she called for $$ from Keith's Mother. Hoping to get them registered for school so they can start ASAP. This is Keith's 1st week back with kids at school. Our home is a mess. We have not seen each other since Monday, I called in to work so I could take the boys to Target for undies, socks & shoes. I have no idea what ans why God is allowing these two boys to have such a crappy life. Or why we have them 9 years later, after they took them away from us. I have no clue what to do. How to feel. I am so tired I can't sleep, think or anything. I want what is best for them. I just have now clue. W does not want me to leave for work for fear I won't return. K told Keith tonight that he wants to stay with us and not got back with Grandma. We can't afford to double our kid capacities. We have don't have enough room for us let alone two boys. I just don't know what to think or do. What is next? Where do I go? Why can't I get answers? Why is it taking so long to get my phone calls return? Lord, PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!Help I am lost and I just don't what is going on. It all is happening so fast.

This week has been long!! But it is coming to an end.
I am working Saturday. But there is a good reason, not just $$. But what the $$ is for.
My sister called me yesterday and asked me if I wanted to go to a concert with her. You see, she when to a big concert in TN Bonnaroo(SP). Anyway, it was a 4 day thing and she had a blast. She saw all kinds of artists. It is like a once in a life time thing. Well, I told her in June that it sounded fun and I wish I could do stuff like that. SO, she said that I could got with her. Keith is not keen on the idea. But it is no until next June, so there is a lot of time. Well, she called me asking me if I would like to got to Earth Dance 2005 in Laytonville, 5 hours North of Fresno. So I looked it up on line at
earthdance 2005.org
Basically a hippie fest. Looks like fun, so I told her I had to talk it over with Keith. T & E would have a fun time camping and being outside. Keith agreed that to let us go if it was something I wanted to do. I think it would be okay. I mean, do you ever feel like you want to do something unexpected, kinda different and well not like you? I do. Leave work & city behind you and go where no one knows you. You don't know anyone. Just go and be? Leaving the worries of life. I think I need that. I think that everyone needs that. It's not like I am getting any younger.
Camping, music, art and fun stuff! Yes I know that Spirit West Coast is like that, but when that came around we could not go. I think maybe next year. But I can't get my sister to go to that. SO I need to step out of my boundaries and in to hers. Well, from the web site, I don't think either of us would generally go and do something like earth dance. My mom said she would think about coming. I think she'll go just to be with T &E. It would be just Me, Mom & Carrie (my sis) and of course T & E. A bunch of hippies, music and art. Fun, want to come??

Keith goes back to work on Monday. It sure was great to have him home the last 2 weeks. He has been great. He finished his 2 classes. History he got a B. The man never opened the $80 book. I wish I could do that. He'll find out soon about the other class. I am sure he did fine.
It was so Africa hot today. I went on a walk at 1045pm and it was stink HOT!
Took T & E to the mall today so T could run around at the play area. He had fun. JCP had clothes for 70% off!! What a deal. Picked up a few things for T and an few for E too. Can't pass up $1.79 for shorts and $2 shirts. Not to mention 3 piece outfits for $4.99. Talk about blue lite specials!! As you can see I am proud of my key buys.
Well, if I haven't lost your attention by now I sure if I continue to go on I'll lose you for sure.
Have a great weekend!

Go, go go! That is how I feel. Like I am always going somewhere & doing something.
Got my stitches out and hand is healing fine. A little tight, but good.
Keith has been off for the last week or so. It's been nice to sleep a little and have him home. There are days, however, when I can't wait for him to go back to work. I know that I'll miss him next week when he goes back. He's almost done with school, Thursday is his late day. :-)
Last week Miss E has Roseolla. It's a high fever for 3 to 4 days followed by a rash. Poor thing looked like a newborn, all red and sad. But she's better now. She is a busy baby. She like to stand, sit up and army crawl. Go, go, go! She really likes sitting up. And she like yogurt too. I found a recipe to make it at home and it turned out pretty good and she liked it. I liked it too.
T man is getting so big. His new thing, "I do it, I do it" little Mr. Independent.
Tonight I called home and he talked to me on the phone for almost six minutes. He just went on and on about his day. It was so funny. I laughed and cried at the same time. Laughed because he just went on and on about somethings that go stuck somewhere and how papa needed to get them out. Cried because my little guy is growing so fast. Next thing I know I'll be looking up to him to talk to me 'cause he is taller than me.
Well, gotta go. Time to go home.
BTW, DSL is fixed, I just don't have enough hours in the day to do anything.
night, night!